Sunday, January 26, 2014

Venting To God

I love that God doesn't tell us to keep our feelings and opinions in. He wants us to talk to Him, tell Him when we're scared, struggling, feeling forsaken, hurt, or angry. He'll open your eyes and reveal to your heart, with such gentle kindness, His love for you, that your opinions and your feelings will change. He doesn't want you to pretend you're happy when you're not. What kind of relationship is that, where you can't tell the other person something- anything? Telling someone they can't talk about how they feel inside, is like telling someone they can't talk about what they feel on the outside: hunger, thirst, pain, irritation, cold, hot. What if someone you love, your child, never told you they were hungry? Wouldn't that break your heart? Because you love them? Now consider the inside, and how debilitating and consuming our emotional pain can be. If you truly loved someone, it would kill you that they never told you when they were hurting. I always tell myself, I don't have the right to be angry with someone I feel has hurt me, unless I tell them. How else would they know? Not forgetting that God never does us wrong, but He knows how it is to be on the other side, here on earth, out of the Father's presence, and He knows everything. He knows we don't understand, and how frightening and painful that can be. He knows our pasts, how we've been hurt before, and can't conceive a sinless person who would never do us wrong, but He loves us, and He wants doesn't want us to pretend. He wants us to understand. Even if you come to God, forgetting His love toward you and His promises, He will set your heart straight because you came. The great thing about venting to God, is that He has the ability to actually change your heart. When venting to someone else, or even just yourself, your heart and the problem don't change, and it's frustrating.